Anniversaries

This photo is of my dear husband and I  many years ago on our 1st anniversary.   On this anniversary  Zack and I  traveled from Denver to Colorado Springs so we could see Riverdance, which was amazing. We always look forward to dressing up and spending time together just the two of us.

Through the years we have always made our anniversaries a very special occasion. In the early years there were  times that we didn’t have $5 to our name but we always managed to make it memorable.  We have gone to plays, had special dinners, gone to fancy French hotels (this was one of my favorites, the chocolate covered beignets were to die for), and taken weekend trips. I could go on and on. We always have made our anniversaries a big deal because we both so much believe in the sanctity of marriage and each year we are together is truly a blessing.

Anniversaries should be special. I always think back to our wedding day. I wasn’t nervous at all. It was a lovely ceremony in a cozy church nestled in the Rockies. The views were breath taking.  It was a very special day that I will cherish forever.

Each year that I spend with my hubby is truly remarkable. This past Tuesday was our anniversary and I was heartbroken. You see I have been quite ill lately. For the past eight  weeks or so  I have been having seizures and flare ups do to my Rheumatoid Arthritis as well as experiencing horrible medication side effects.  The past eight weeks we have been in and out of doctors and specialist’s office. I have had extensive blood work, MRI’s, MRA’s, EEG’s, and CT scan’s. I should be glowing now.  Not only do I have a primary care physician but I now have a Rheumatolgist and a Neurologist. This year on our anniversary I felt so bad. My pain levels were at a all time highs and I was miserable.  I feel like our special day was kind of overlooked because of my illness. We didn’t even exchange cards .  We had a nice diner at home but I couldn’t enjoy it because my pain was almost unbearable and I was out of it due to the medication. I wished my hubby  a “happy birthday”.

I want a do-over. I love having anniversaries and I love planning our special day together. I am really bummed out  and heartbroken. I feel cheated. I hate the fact that I didn’t do anything special for the man of my dreams and love of my life. How can I make this up to him?

I think everyone should treat anniversaries as a “holiday”. In fact, I think you should get a paid day off work if it is your anniversary. Marriage is such a beautiful thing and  it should be celebrated.